The ones that keep me going
The biggest impact:
Samantha- my best friend ever. she keeps me strong
Cody- the love of my life. he taught me what love is
Mom-she might be 30 years older but she is a BFF
Maggie-we might be far away but we are always close at heart
Carrie- she is very supportive, reliable, & fun
Alice- always gives me the biggest hugs when I need them
Allison M- my replacement big. I love this girl.
Anna- she is very sweet & always shares her hugs & love
Karl- my camp roomie. we are very close
Christa- my Bama chick. i love her. goofy & sincere                      
Alexandra- my cousin.younger but i love her

the medium bunch (they make a difference but maybe not all the time or the impact isn't as dynamic):
Stacey- i like to hang with her when i am home
Jackie- my roomie. we always have fun out door adventures together but the communication is no where & the motivation to see me is non existent
Sarah F- still new in my life but she is a complete sweetie
Leland- he is nice but he has liked me way too much for me to get too close
Elaina- Love her but she left me & this hurt me. I wish she had not taken me as her little if she was going to drop because it has made a big difference in my experience in the sorority. I love it but it would be better if she was gone. and there are other factors that hinder this relationship
Tuck- she is crazy but i love her
Kiki- she is someone I can always hold a conversation with & she is very athletic just like me
Jennifer- I never see her but I enjoy it when I do get the opportunity
Addie- she is so sweet but i never see her either
Travis- i have a few issues with him but i love him
amanda- full of energy & love
Jessica- my wonderful little. so sweet
Laura- I can always talk to her. love her
kristin- we got along instantly. she rocks
kayla- i am closer to her twin but i love this girl too
amy varner- she is my BFF from way back
brittany s- i found her! LOVE IT!
amy d- we are close when we are together but that doesnt happen a lot

Low support to very little ( these people either used to be boyfriends or really close friends or they are new in my life):
Zarah- I still dont know her very well but she seems like a great girl
Donald- he is a mess. i wish we were still really close but reality check..we arent..im not really sure what happened.
allie- hmmmmm never see her
paula- super sweet. we have fun together
taylor- haha my gansta girl...
wesly-impossible to meet up with but my camp first aid chicka
jenny-married girl. we arent as strong but she is still a friend
heather- i love this girl. super cute.
jami- my MOMMA!
alyssa- has helped me through some issues. very sweet
emily- dont know her very well but she has been very supportive
rachel- diff personalities but i enjoy her
Denny- got really close during the summer but then it kinda faded.
brianne- love her. we are in diff stages in our lifes but i enjoy her
bridget- dont get to see her much but i have fun with her.
crystal- so hard to get a hold of

Life is sometimes like a cake. Its delicious and yummy at first. BUT if you leave it in the sun or if it gets crumbled it turns into a HUGE mess that you really just dont want to deal with. Most days life is the delicious cake that you cherish. Then theres the days the cake goes bad...its just not so yummy anymore. I think most people can relate to this. Sometimes there are just things in your life that are bothering you. It could be grades, a sickness, a family member, or something like that. It is something that you had no clue it was coming and BOOM its there and you have to figure out a solution. The solution can sometimes be harder to find that you would think. It might take you weeks to figure the solution out and even then you wonder if you did the right thing. You wonder how long it will take for the solution to actually help the situation. You just sit back and wonder and fiddle your thumbs. As you fiddle 'em thumbs you are faced with the best situtation ever to sit back and pray. Pray hard that your situtation will be resolved and never stop praying.

The past week and a half I've been back at Murray State. We have had 3 days of school all ready. It is great to be a sophomore this year. First off, I know how things work and where things are (for the most part). I did get lost going to class but thats a different story. hahah. I am in Racer Band again this year. It is fun but hard-core this year. We are going to Saint Louis BOA so we have to be good. I'm taking 14 hours this semester which will be a GPA booster. That will most definitely help me get into the nursing program. :)
Then theres the wonderful AdPi. I love my 87 sisters. They are great. If something is going on in my life they are there for me and I love it. I might not be the most outgoing person in the group but im not forgotten. I took a little yesterday. It's so exciting to be a momma. haha. Jessica and I should have tooons of fun.
The glory of God is something I have seen lately a lot. Cody, my boyfriend, and I got into a fight the other night. He was depressed and really down. He was so down that he stood me up when we were supposed to meet. I was liike WOA...thats night cool. We argued Friday night about it. But last night we resolved it. I had a huuuge convo with him about HAPPINESS. I focused on how God brought us here for a reason and we should glorify him and not dread on the BAD things. Yes it stinks when something not so good is going on but theres so many good things to bring you up. It really helped and Cody & I and better fo shizzle. It is great to see God shine through people. 

LOOOOVE
yo hooome girl,
ALLLIBOOOOOBA

Howdy yo. I'm back from Camp Lakeview. After being there 11 weeks I'm back. It is crazy that camp is over. To tell you the truth I miss it so much. I really just want to go back. Camp is my comfort zone. It is so much easier to forget what is going on at home when you are busy at camp. Let's just say there is a massive amount going on at home...More than you can imagine. That is one of the main reasons I want to go back to camp. I want to be around the staff again. The 20-ish people on staff this summer became my family. I went to them for my various questions and problems throughout the summer. It is so hard knowing they are not physically there anymore. I can't just go give them a hug whenever I would like. 
The staff I got really close to include: Denny- One of the 5 Sarahs. She was immediately one of my friends. SO easy to talk to and always there when I needed her. LOST so LOST. Poison IVY! OH NO!
Bjami- My mom at camp. Sticking my fingers in her muffin..haha. she was so much fun to be around. 
Tuck- tuck oh tuck. if you wanted to know the latest update on anything she was the one to talk to. she was good at fixing issues/problems to. 
KARL..for obvious reasons- my roomie. I love this girl (bill and dale)
theres so many more too. 
I miss them all so much.
The fifth week of camp I was in the Village. HowNow was the other counselor down there. We had sooo much fun. We went on a ten-mile bike trip which I got to lead the last 2-3 miles. A deer ran out in front of me. It was super sweet. Renee is the camper I will never forget from this week mainly because she wasn't exactly the "outdoorsy type" or "camp" type. She didnt even bring tennis shoes to camp and she wasn't anywhere close to being in shape. I somehow had to convince her in 2-ish days that she was going on not only the bike trip but the rafting trip as well. It took a lot of encouraging words and who knows what else. She went on both trips. Thankfully completing at least the rafting trip. Renee oh renee...she didnt drink water or milk meaning she got very dehydrated on the bike trip when she drank FOUR koolaid singles. thats 120 Calories and definitely not hydrating whatsoever. 
Week Six- the CRAZIEST week ever. Short Sessions. The first half of the week I was in Miami then Wednesday I switched to Potawatomi. Wednesday at 1 the first half of the kids left and right after the second half came. IT WAS CRAZY. I lived though. It was fun minus the homesickness. I wish I would have been a camper at that age. most of the kids were 7,8 or 9. 
Week Seven- THIS was the most amazing week ever clearly because it was SENIOR high week. IT was so relaxing after having the little kids and being wornout. Since we had older kids this week there were no Junior counselors and each cabin had 11 campers instead of 10. MY girls were the best. It was great because most of them all ready knew eachother and that helped alot. PLus all but two of my girls had been to Lakeview before so they knew how things worked and asked few questions. I could actually have decent conversations with them. We did a lot of fun things...like pudgie pies...which ARE absolutely amazing ( i think i want them for dinner NOW) sleeping out..two nights...once in the craft room and once out on the tennis courts ( i taught them how to play not fall and they LOVED it), playing All MALE continium, having a cool Circus skit and wearing the same color shirt one day. Plus thursday night during cabin activity they had a surprise party for me. Christa was in charge of coordinating it. They were so cuuute about it. There was a cake and decorations. They even had Jordan Steinmetz buy me a tiara. :) They held this birthday party because they knew they wouldnt see me on my birthday. I LOOVEd this week. Plus Thursday night Christa and I were in charge of electric campfire. we re-enacted Lifehouse's Everything Skit. It had an amazing effect. Many of the campers were crying and that's what a lot of them needed. 
Week Eight- I was in Munsee with nine year-olds. It was an okay week..nothing special. SOme of the campers were just super slow on getting ready for things BUT we still had fun. I'll never forget Sydney and her obession for Chas-wiz. It was pretty interesting. Chas likes Blueberry Muffin tops and Sydney found out and ate that cereal every day that week. Then she made him arts and crafts...it was...interesting yo.
Week Nine- Potawatomi again! I had an amazing JC Sarah Burr. She did an excellent job esp as only a FIRST year. The kids were good this week as well. Anna, Gabby, and the many others. They had a lot of energy and we had fun!
Week Ten- I was in the kitchen again. IT was nice to be in the kitchen again because it was quite relaxing. I had a lot of fun this week. I was crazy and goofy as can be. It was sad knowing it was my last week at camp.
The spider web comes after camp. It's a spiderweb of my three different places I've lived in the last year. 1=Home or Lexington Kentucky. my family, pets, high school friends
2=School or Murray Kentucky. the sorority, band, school, friends
3= Camp or Seymour Indiana. the campers, the christian atmosphere, friends
For the last 2 and a half months I've been at camp away from the Earthly pressures and wants. I have been sheltered in a way. I have also been around all Christians. It a HUGE change being back in Place #1 after being at #3 for so long. Very soon...AKA tomorrow I leave for School or #2. I am READY but it will still be so much different than camp. I miss my friends from camp and I want them back but IM also ready to be around the MURRAY people again.
Much love.
Allison

I've been at camp 5 weeks now! Time is sure flying by! I have had so many amazing campers and I have gotten really close to most of the people on staff. The first week was full of storms and my cute little girls. Emily Louise sticks out and the Geek Squad. The constant pulling our shorts up as high as possible was one of the highlights of this week. Leah my Junior counselor was amazing in the least. She even sent me cookies, how sweet! Week two was in Chippewa. These girls were older and had much more attitude and energy. They asked fewer questions then the week before. Memories that stick out from this week are Rachels constant energy, Maddies birthday, and playing the "I love my Christian friend game." Plus becoming very sore from mudpit. Week three I was in the kitchen. It definitely is nice that I know where everything in the kitchen is now. It was a fun week especially since I got to know the cooks even better. :) It was quite relaxing having more time off. The fourth week I was in Delaware with younger girls again. These girls were so cute. They fell in love with the game Maffia and wanted to play it ALL the time. Alexa and Chessie decided they wanted to take me home and make me there HUGE stuffed animal! haha. Week five hasnt started yet BUT im in the village or adventure camp. We will be going on a 10 mile bike ride and canoeing down a river. It should be MUCHO fun.
The most rewarding part about working at Camp Lakeview is sharing God to all these kids. It is great to see you have taught them something about Christianity. Just seeing kids pray, sing to the Lord, and just learn about him is one of the coolest things ever. I just know I have made a difference in these kids lives through the God who has strenghtened me. 
One of the other amazing things about working at a camp is you barely notice you are working. Then you realize you are getting paid for doing FUN things like swimming, through jello at kids, raiding the canteen, singing silly songs, worshipping our amazing God, and all the other adventures camp brings. Many times the staff and I stop and think..."you know what guys? we are getting paid for this! who would have ever thought I'd get paid  for having fun!" Sure we arent paid enough for working practically 24 hours a day for 5 and a half days but its worth it in the end. Just seeing the difference you made in these kids lives makes up for it.
The only thing I miss while Im at camp is having the "usual summer." The walks at night in the humid air with my family, Sitting on the porch eating watermelon, fireworks with the neighbors, seeing my boyfriend as much  as I want. That is what I miss by working at camp. I really miss seeing my family and my boy

Much love
allison

Why do certain people try to make my life so d*** complicated? It sucks. My best friend shouldn't be making my life so horrible. Half of the time everything is fine then she starts her whole manipulating and everything goes backwards. I dont understand why she cant be sincere to me and tell me the truth. Best Friends arent supposed to keep secrets. They are supposed to trust eachother with their lives. Does she trust me with her life? Hell no she doesnt. Im no where close to being trusted by her which is super duper surprising. Its so surprising because she used to LIE to me ALL the fing time but I trust her more now then she trusts me. And the thing is she lied to me about important things. For example, she told me that she was adopted and that her parents through her in an orphange...blah blah blah. I believed her because I was a nieve little 7th grader and I trust her TODAY. She did all this lying to make me feel bad for her and she does the same thing to me today as well. why do I put up with all of her crap? that is a very very good question. I really dont have the answer except we have been very tight before and maybe by holding on there is some hope that we will be tight again. I just really doubt it. It stinks sooo MUCH because she was my roomie, was going to be my maid of honor in my future wedding and who knows what else. I just hate to let our friendship go. It always stinks because I lost a friendship about a year ago and I dont want to lose another. My bf wants me to loosen the relationship with her. He is tired of me complaining about her giving me crap. I understand but its so hard to let go of a friendship you have had since you were 13 years old. Im just in a slight Delimma. The best thing to do is PRAY and pray hard. I know God will lead me in the right path and I know being at camp all summer will be great for me. I will be away from her all summer and hopefully when we get back to school everything will blossom and be A-Okay.
peace. <3